I Guess I'm Being Nostalgic

Nostalgic - 1. A wistful desire to return in thought or in fact to a former time in one's life, to one's home or homeland, or to one's family and freinds; a sentimental yearning for the happiness of a former place or time: a nostalgia for her college days (Dictionary.com).

I had to make sure what I am feeling and preparing to expound upon is actually what I am feeling right now.

I wish I knew what triggers nostalgic moments. I have no idea what sparks our mental psyche to wish or long for days or times even places from our past. I only know it happens. One day you awake looking for a trace of time long gone.

My mom recently died as I have stated in an earlier post and today while my sister and I were fellowshipping with one another (yes, I said, fellowship), I began to long for the days when we would play outside. Living in the same neighborhood for more than 40+ years my sister has definitely seen some changes, even since my return 3 years ago, the changes I've witnessed are at best heartbreaking.

Although the changes we're experiencing are not from any catastrophic storm but are the result of big business and land development. The airport 'wants' the property and we must go (so they say).

It's odd not seeing the old folks who used to spank us when doing wrong, waiting to tell daddy when he got of work only to end up with another 'whoopin' because old Mother Jackson had to get after us. Or what about the ice cream man (that was usually the church deacon who had fresh fish for sale as well) that everyone knew was coming at a certain time of day...Everyday!

Now when I look out the door I see what once was. Friends that I grew up with are no more. Their homes have been demolished, now standing with fences surrounding the propertry with 'No Trespassing' signs attached.

I don't feel attached to anything anymore. Things are just so uncertan heretofore. In a day and time like this, we don't even know what politicians are going to do. We don't even know what true relationships we have or not. Uncertainty is plaguing this land.

I guess mama was right, 'Time brings about a change, and the one thing that is cetain, you better know Jesus because He's the one thing that is constant. His love for us never changes. And you better be ready to meet Him when He comes.'

So I guess I'll look forward to seeing her again...Up there, where Jesus is.

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